Sometimes you Need to Release your Thoughts
Below is an example of letting go
Try it and see what happens
I need to write. Lately, I have turned writing into something difficult like a chore, but when I do write it always helps me feel better. The truth is that I prefer writing to most activities I do. However, in my mind I let the voices of doom absolutely destroy any chance of writing for pleasure. I am the one that should be leading the emancipation and expression of my own thoughts, hopes, dreams, and fears (let’s be real, it’s not all going to be lollipops and unicorns in my head). If I opened up to all the negative thoughts, each and every day, I don’t think I would make it to the shower let alone to work. It does feel like an ongoing battle, but it also feels like I let the voices run the ship.
It’s time to take back the reigns. The reason I bring this up is that I need expression. I need to be better than I am. I need to believe and embrace that I am better than what I show as an individual. I’m tired of fighting myself. I am flawed. We all are. I need to accept that and move forward. I’m sick of the walls that I build and then lament that they are there. I’m getting older and I feel like I am regressing. Meditation, positive thoughts, helping others, teaching, mentoring are things that help but, still at the core, I have to monitor myself and work on myself to be a better version of me. Thoughts and dreams are great, but I can’t get to a better state of mind without working at this every day. Why me? Why not me? That is the question.